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Carl-Michael: I was at the wrong place at the wrong time. I hit rock bottom, quite literally. I fell from 5 stories. Just about everything from my feet and up to the lower part of my spine was broken in different ways. I had 26 different fractures. My heels were actually pulverized. My pelvis was crushed. My right elbow. But the most severe injury is the one to my spine. My feet and parts of my legs are now paralyzed. When I eventually came in to intensive care, the surgeons could actually stick a fist into the undersides of my feet. Luckily one might say, they were the ones that took the blow. The only strike to my head was to the jaw. But one never knows if anything happened to the brain, you know. I`ve started to speak in anagrams, and inviting the doctors to go on stamp-exhibitions in London. I have also started to claim to be a competent collector of old houseporter-uniforms. My ideas about the great annual wilderbeast-migration actually taking place in a tramshed in Moss, Norway has been dismissed by a kind, worried friend of a friend of mine. Hahaha! Just taking a piss at you, folks.... I`m probably the only one having fun right now, but what the fuck.This whole thing is a great source of absurdities you know. Its an out of place situation. You can twist and turn it just about every direction. I`m a great lover of the absurd. I`m an absurdist..... I`m feeling fine now. Everything has been stabilised. All the extreme pain has calmed down. I`m still on morphine, but cutting down rapidly these days. I was held in an artificial koma a month before they woke me up. That process of waking up was an experience I`ll never forget. You know, they say that morphine-komas creates the most vivid fusions of dream and reality when you`re in the process of waking up. Those are stories of their own. I`ll probably create manifestations of them lyric-wise. Psycically, I`m not that particular about things anymore. I can relax and say and do things I feel like. Theres not so much anxiety surrounding everything anymore. After this ordeal, I know I have experiences noone can relate to. It has made me stronger, more content about myself. I have kinda established who I am, and what I wanna do. Theres no voice in my head nomore, saying Im a fool, and the things that I do are rubbish. Luckily, the state of Norway takes care of their wounded artists. I have now everything practical in my life fixed, and they say I can keep doing my thing.
CM: Me and Vicotnik have some sort of a creative brotherhood. Our songs kinda writes themselves. Its a very fluent process, and its very comfortrable working with him. We have been talking about placing the band back on track for years, but it has allways been some "project" that has to be finished, an album here and there with different bands. There has allways been an atmosphere around our talks of the reformation of Ved Buens Ende telling us that this is our main thing. Our true creation. And that all that other stuff are just outlets of different sorts. The reason that it has been postponed for so many years, I think, is that vbe is ours. Not just a band were in, not a one-man project with members. It s ours in the flesh. We created it. Its very real, and sometimes the very things thats real are intimidating. We in our part of the world are so used to substitutes, were so blasè about all and nothing that the stuff thats from the very inside becomes allmost frightening. I think that this incident of mine has made me think so thouroghly about seperating the wheat from the corn, that I have discovered whose my real friends, whats my real drift, whats the real music. So what I`m left with is vbe, aura noir, a few close friends and my family. Feels nice. .
CM: I dont think we`re able to. Its not like we`re trying to achieve anything with our music. Like I said, our songs make themselves, what we`re left with are creations we can describe afterwords. I think our next album will be some sort of a blend between the two mentioned albums. As far as composing goes, its a 50-50 effort between me and vicotnik. As I said, its our band, not a one-man thing with members. As far as lyrics goes, it`ll be mostly mine. I know he`ll write some, but not many. After this experience of mine, I have alot on my heart, so I know everybody will understand that I`ll be productive.
CM: We`ll go on stage, for sure. We`ll do individual concerts, no tours. Probably alot of festivals. As far as perfomance goes, we play our songs well on rehersals. It should probably take some gigs to pull off good ones,. Its a learning process.
CM: You know, we had about 150 rehersals, and I got used to the acoustics in the rehersalroom. Its extremely difficult leaving something you`ve grown so accustomed to. When we entered studio, everything was so extremely different that the songs (whitch were very challenging) were much harder to pull off. I had six days to record 18 tracks. It was one of the most difficult times of my life. I felt worthless as a musician. Needless to say, there was alot of editing going on afterwords, and it ended up sounding like it did on rehersals. Very nice listening to the album nowadays. Its allmost a life-achievement on its own having participated on an album like that. I`m overwhelmed. I left the band mostly because of my following depression, but also because of everything that was happening with cadaver at the time.
CM: I didnt like it very much. I dont feel like I have participated on it at all since the drums was processed through a computer so much to the extent that I am totally unfamiliar with them. Actually I was meant to play guitar on the album, like I did on a gig or two. I learnt all the songs, but ended up playing drums on it! Then when we were ready for studio, suddenly I had to play the drums instead. I dont remember why. HAHA! What a waste! Actually I play guitar on a song or two, just for the symbolics of it. On the hidden track for example. Thats me, on that cosy accoustic guitar-fingering. I have listened to it a couple of times lately. Its ok. a bit messy.
CM: Well, we did that ûberthrash-thing, together with audiopain and nocturnal breed. That double 7"-thing with one song from each band. Inferno was on there also. Quite exclusive. Anyway, we have about 6 new tracks for the next record. We have the title ready, but I wont reveal it, cause its so cool, someone will steal it. HA! That fucking happened when we revealed the original title for what was to become "downtown hades" with Inferno in an interview. The title "destination hell" was fucking stolen by some band that same year, before we finished the album! Fucking rascals! Apollyon has moved out of town, and has become a friluftsmann (whitch means - NDLR : Blank in the e-mail - in norwegian). And Blasphemer has finally exhibited his impressive collection of vintage mopeds.
CM: No bad about Neddo or Balvaz, they are beloved friends of mine, but Cadaver was a bit of a waste of time for me and Apollyon. The Merciless should have been released in 2000!! I think Cadaver anno the twentyfirst century had some strong material, but alot of crap as well. And, I have to tell you, I loathe playing drums live. I totally hate it! Putting that fucking kit up, night after night, and if you do one mistake, you`ll probably do some more, then it`ll just escalate and you`ll play like a cunt! Then you hate yourself after the gig, and the day after, and youll be on a bad mood the next gig, and the whole fucking ordeal becomes a nightmare. vbe and aura noir!! Thats were I belong..
CM: Well, Pussy is on another bag these days. He`s doing his electronica act ost og kjeks (cheese and crackers), and all in all living in the fast lane. You know, he was labeled as the best norwegian vocalist by fenriz, and I think I agree with him. His style is unique, he sounds desperately insane and has the stamina to pull it off all the way though. Anyway, Maybe we`ll record our songs, we have about eight of them, and make an album. Either way, thats quite far in the distant future. By the way, we have plans for releasing a concert we did that was recorded (actually three days before my accident), including the 7" songs and some more crap. We`re gonna call it Infernô; "live in concert" hahaha!
CM: People didnt get it at all. Neither our contemporaries nor the metal-buying public understood Ved Buens Ende. It was not inspiring. Satyr created the expression "elite-bands", and placed satyricon in top-three. Vbe wasnt even placed in the little childrens-league. We were totally overlooked by everyone. Except fenriz. He really loved our demo, and since we looked upon him like a sort of a scout-leader (now, he`s the president of norway), that meant the world to us. We wanted to create something outstanding. Something far apart from that "norge ûber alles"- thing everyone was doing at the time. We really thought that sucked ass in hell. Fusions of folk music and metal did`nt work out.. We did our own thing. You`ll have to give us that. And the magic of it all, was that it came so natural to us. The songs made themselves. We had our inspirations you know, ofcourse celtic frost, but also coil and other stuff, but we didnt sound like them at all. We completely had our own sound.
CM: Satyricon was actually called Eczema back in the day. I was a crap drummer, and these two other guys and me were rehersing alot and playing some gigs here and there. When satyr came in, he took over the show, and threw me out cause I preferred hanging out with my girl at the time rather than kicking down gravestones together with the band. I met slick-ass Garm, and started Ulver. At first we played old-school thrash before we started making those songs for that demo I cant remember what`s called. Then Garm became a diehard norge-man, and I kinda lost intrest in the band. I had also started making psychedelic riffs by then, and wanted to move on. Also, something that kinda pissed me off, was that our guitarplayer, Reza, whitch was Iranian, got laid off because the rest of the scene didnt like him not being norwegian. I left shortly thereafter. This time I quit. Vicotnik is half Indian, and I remember, when we started, someone said "so he has started playing with a new pakki, has he?". What the fuck, when did music have to do anything with what country you hail from!? We said fuck off to the whole bullshit scene, and did our own thing.
CM: I`ve never been extremely into drugs, just "a little". The best riffs I`ve made, has come for example in the morning after spending a whole night forgetting to eat or something. I`ve never made riffs stoned, or at least not the good ones. I dont know, maybe I have supressed alot from my old life, I tend to not remember much. People can come up to me saying I said or did this or that, and I go "what?!"... Anyway, I grew up with music, and started playing in the school-orchestra(!) when I was 7. My father is a musician, and my mother is extremely music intrested. She has allways had alot of music. I`ve had music around me since I was born, so I guess its only natural. Well, one can never explain in words how you become who you are. I guess I have had alot of misfortune, without going into boring details, and it has coloured me in many ways. I have never sought for success or status, maybe that has something to do with it. Playing, handling the actal instrument has allways been important, even though I have never practiced any instrument. I have only played drums with a band, allways played guitar to make music or with a band, the same with the bass, so I guess I have some sort of a talent, even though just saying that gives me a stale taste in my mouth. I truly hate people who brag about themselves. You just dont say stuff about yourself that other people are supposed to say about you.
CM: These days I just listen to the classics. Into the pandemonium is the album I`ve listened the most to during my life. It incorporates everything I want in an album. The bizarre, the dark etc.etc. I could give you a list of ten best records, but thats just too boring... Anyway, I`ve not been following any scene now for years. I have stopped trying to discuss the music-scene of today with people cause then I just get the raised brows and all too expressive eyes. "Are you there still, man?!" I would just go all embarrassed, and take the insipid steps back home. But I listen to all sorts of music. Everything from arvo pärt to darkthrone.
CM: Yeah, the other night I was sitting in my room (1st floor) with the balconydoor open, then I heard a load NEIGH!! A HORSE was walking past my room!! cz
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